About this blog

I was diagnosed with breast cancer on June 11, 2010. As a result of my treatment, I have lymphedema in my left arm. I draw my strength from the Lord, as well as my family's Scots-Irish heritage. Our Graham's were a tough and scrappy bunch of fighters on the Scottish/English border. They came to America and continued to fight when necessary: in the American Revolution; the Civil War; and my brother is a Captain in the U.S. Army. My ancestors settled this country against all odds. My great-grandmothers on both sides of the family were pioneer women who settled the West. Along with that heritage, and the full armor of God, I am walking the walk and fighting the good fight.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Taking off for a few days

I've spent a good part of the day today getting ready for our little mini-trip to Catalina. We are leaving at 7:30 a.m. tomorrow morning and will get back on Thursday night.

I didn't want to leave the blog for a few days with the post from this morning. I have my ups and downs. This morning was a down. I realized mid-morning that this is a "PMS" week for me. Perhaps that has made me more emotionally sensitive. Knowing that this cancer is estrogen driven, I also wonder if the hormonal surge related to my monthly cycle might make the tumor grow? I'm probably psyching myself out.

I appreciate the comments and suggestions I've gotten since my last post this morning. I hadn't thought of visualization. I will definitely start doing that. I did a lot of that preparing for homebirths and I know how valuable it can be. I realized that I was doing visualization but in a negative way. (Thinking I could feel the tumor growing). So I will try doing it in the reverse-imagining it shrinking instead. I searched iTunes and found some calming meditative podcasts for coping with breast cancer. I downloaded them and am going to also try to carve out some time to do them as well. I need to calm down and be able to relax. Losing a little bit of sleep each night is starting to catch up on me. (I was awake at 4:40 a.m. this morning)

I won't be posting for a few days, but I will be in touch. My iPhone will never be far away, especially since I'd like to get a call from Kaiser telling me they can move my surgery up.

For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." Romans 8:15

Sometimes its helpful to put scripture in the first person. So I'll make this one say: "For I did not receive a spirit that makes me a slave again to fear, but I received the Spirit of sonship. And by him I cry, "Abba, Father!" Boy, do I need Him now.

Your continued prayers are appreciated.

1 comment:

  1. With very much love...

    and wishing you sleep, too! (and yes, I had THAT experience, too... )

    enjoy the sea and colors, and keep Romans near!

    Laura B