I had started to write about how I hoped 2011 would be better for me than 2010. But then I started to think about the good things that came about in 2010:
- A new niece (Kate) and a new nephew (Caleb). What a blessing babies are! It is great to be an Aunt twice over in one year.
- The kids continued to do well in school. Olivier made the transition to middle school well. That was a big change for all of us, but it went well.
- Eric had a great year in his job. In this economy, that is saying something! His superiors like him, and like what he is doing for the company.
- I got into the best physical shape of my life in the first half of the year. I've fought the second half to try and keep it, lol.
- The kids are healthy.
Yeah, 2010 did have its BIG challenge--breast cancer. The reason we are here. I wouldn't add that to the list of blessings right now. Perhaps at some point in the future, I will be able to see the good in it. Right now, I'm in the thick of the fight.
I never have been one to make New Year's Resolutions. If I decide I'm going to do something, I do it, regardless of the time of the year. But this year, I can't help but feel like its good to make some goals for myself. Physical, mental and spiritual goals. So here they are:
- I want to lose another 15 pounds. I'm going to wait until after my radiation to really get serious about this. But I know how to do it-I lost 50 pounds last year. I was about 10 away from my goal when I was diagnosed. Suddenly, losing weight didn't seem as important when I had cancer to think about. Since diagnosis, I've put about 5 back on-and that is on top of losing all of my breast tissue. After radiation ends in February, its going to be back to counting calories until I reach my original weight loss goal from 2009.
- I would like to get through radiation without a flare up of lymphedema. This is definitely out of my control. But I can do what I can do to help: twice daily manual drainage; keeping up with exercise, even if radiation makes me tired; avoiding salt; bandaging; and wearing my compression sleeve. If after all of that I swell up, then so be it. But I will have done all I could do.
- On the spiritual side, I want to get back into a disciplined daily Bible reading program. I'll admit that I've let that slide over the past year. Its strange because in some ways, my walk has deepened nonetheless. But I miss God's Word, and I know that it feeds my spirit. A few years ago, I dove into reading both Old and New Testaments in one year. It was a push, and I didn't have a 2 year old at the time. I found a reading schedule on Blue Letter Bible that will get you through both in 2 years. It alternates one day of Old Testament with one day of New. Today's reading was only 3 chapters of Genesis. I can do this. I NEED to do this, and I will. I also want to keep up with the Women's Bible Study at church that starts later this month.
- I'd like to do the Susan G. Komen 3 Day walk in November. 60 miles in 3 days. I'll focus on that more after radiation. I need to make sure I can get through that without my arm swelling up like a balloon. I don't want to let lymphedema take me out of that. First things first.
I may come up with more goals as the year goes on. For me right now, I think simplicity will be best. It would be easy to make a big laundry list of things "to do" and then easily forget. So there it is.
Out with the old, bring in the new!